I want to say I'm sorry

[xp_phoenix]

I want to apologize for everything; everything I said and did, for everything I didn't say or do, for lying to myself and thus to all of you. For hiding here when I finally came home.

I want to, but I don't think I can.

It feels like there's nothing I can do that will ever make this better, no way to explain what happened without it sounding like I'm making excuses. You all deserve so much more than that.

If anyone would like to know what happened, why I left and why I said and did everything I did, or even just to yell at me, come talk to me. I won't hide from you anymore.

I'm so sorry.

Comments

[x-snowflake.livejournal.com]

Wait, what happened? You seemed fine to me.

[x-wolverine.livejournal.com]

We need to talk, darlin.

Soon. Got some things I need to say.

Logan

[x-cable.livejournal.com]

Well, speaking for myself, I don't really want apologies or explanations. I would however like to see you, and just talk. Or listen. I've missed you, Jean.

[x-storm.livejournal.com]

There is nothing to apologize for. You are home, you are safe. That is enough.

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

I should have slugged you when I had the chance. Now I would feel guilty about it.

You and I...we should talk.