I want to say I'm sorry

[xp_phoenix]

I want to apologize for everything; everything I said and did, for everything I didn't say or do, for lying to myself and thus to all of you. For hiding here when I finally came home.

I want to, but I don't think I can.

It feels like there's nothing I can do that will ever make this better, no way to explain what happened without it sounding like I'm making excuses. You all deserve so much more than that.

If anyone would like to know what happened, why I left and why I said and did everything I did, or even just to yell at me, come talk to me. I won't hide from you anymore.

I'm so sorry.

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[x-psylocke.livejournal.com]

That explains....so much. Let's say I'm glad that I wasn't around when everything righted itself. I'm leaving again for a few days but when I come back. If you feel compelled to talk, I'll be here. The hard part isn't really recovering from fallout of all of this but realizing that it doesn't matter as long as you do recover.

Compassion was never my strong suit, despite all to the contrary, I am capable of it.